Compersion

"A feeling of joy when a loved one invests in and takes pleasure from another romantic or sexual relationship." from http://www.urbandictionary.com/

It has also been described as the opposite of jealousy. I totally get it. I feel compersion all the time with Maria. I love it when she goes out on dates by herself and comes home and tells me about it. I love watching her fuck other people. It always drives me crazy. It turned out, sort of by accident, that our first swinging experience was with me watching Maria fuck another guy for the most part. The guy would get nervous when I was close or in the room so I ended up standing outside the bedroom listening to Maria get fucked while I sometime would peek in through the slightly open door.

I should have been mad or upset. Instead I was more turned on then I had ever been in my life. It's weird because even after that experience it took years for it to sink in that I really enjoyed this feeling of compersion. For years we sought out the single bi babe or couples with bi ladies. Over the years I would find myself really enjoying just watching Maria play as much as the sex with another lady. I always would joke with her that she was my favorite all time porn star. She still is. :-)

I think this has manifested itself in the GBs we go to. Sometimes I go on my own. Please, don't get me wrong, I always have an AMAZING time when I go on my own but... it's never the same as when Maria goes with me. When Maria goes with me it's like one of those Viagra commercials. I get an erection that lasts for 5 hours! Really... I just look over and watch all the different guys playing with her all night and it keeps me hard for hours. The parties are always so much better for me when she's there. I can fuck all night. Because of compersion.