Catching Feelings

Had my date with Jessica. Like usual it was amazing! It seems like every time we get together we have so much fun! Tonight was a little different though...

First of all. It's been really hitting me recently that I've been doing this for a LONG time this "swinging" thing. The first couple we ever played with, (Ryan and Lisa) lasted about two, maybe three years. We met the other Maria. We played with her for about two years before she had medical issues. We met some other couples in the "first stage" of swinging and then took a break when we had our first kid. Then we met (Kay and Jim). We played with them for about two/three years? We took another break for our second kid. But the point is, we never played with anyone for more than two or three years.

When we started to play again after our second kid it seemed like everything had changed. There were web sites where you could meet other swingers! It was awesome but it also seemed like it changed things somewhat.

Also, after our second kid I had a swinger experience that sort of changed me. I met on SLS a couple. But it was more that I started to email/message the female half almost every day. The funny thing was that she was a super smart educated lady with a porn star name. I fell head over heals for Christie.

She had an undergrad in Woman's Studies and a Master's in Library Science and was working as a librarian. She was the hot librarian! She was also a Trixie (look it up). We started to email every day. She dropped enough references and experiences that I knew she was real. Things about swinger clubs that you would only know if you had actually been to them. I got the "feelings" for her without even thinking about it. She was hot and interesting and smart. A deadly combination for me.

We also had a 4sum date with them early on. We met them as a two couples in a bar and chatted and got to know each other for a bit. In person I think she and I hit it off while Maria and her hubby didn't really click the same way. I still will forever remember the kiss that Christie and I had after that first meeting. We left the restaurant where we met and kissed each other on the sidewalk outside. She was wearing a long coat the was open. I remember wrapping my arms around her waist inside her coat. One of those intimate hot moments that wasn't hardcore sex but still very hot. Maria kissed Grant but I don't think it had the same "intensity" that my kiss with Christie had. I was obsessed...

We emailed each other every day for about a year. But the funny thing is we never actually fucked. It was just a massive tease. After about a year we did finally set up a date one night. She and I met in a hotel room. We banged for about an hour or so. It was totally intense. At one point she went off to the bathroom for a bit. When she came out she was bouncing off the walls. I still think, after all these years, that she snorted some coke. It just seemed like something was going on. I never asked her about it...

We drove to downtown Chicago late at night. We ended up going to Fado. An Irish Pub themed bar. The band was awesome that night and played a bunch of traditional Irish folk songs that I knew from listening to the Pogues and the Dubliners. We drank Guinness and sang together. I was really horny and wanted to fuck some more. But I ended up dropping her off at 2 in the morning near her place and driving home. That was the only time we ever fucked.

We emailed each other for a few months after that.

I know the whole thing made Maria grumpy. The fact that we would email each other every single day seemed a bit much to her. I still remember the night when she got grumpy at me and said, "you're having an affair with Christie. It may not really be a physical affair but it's an emotional one, and it's pissing me off!" I said, "what the hell are you talking about. That's crazy!"

Then I remember waking up the next day and saying. "Oh my God. She's right!"

It also hit me that for all the emails. The year and a half of all that work and time. We had fucked once. The bubble burst. It was weird. All of a sudden we stopped emailing each other. It sort of burst on her end as well at the same time. A house of cards that collapsed.

So since then I've been wary of catching, as Dan Savage would say, those "feelings". The point is. I am totally in love with Maria for the long haul. I can't image ever leaving her. She's a part of me. I've tried to make sure, since the Christie "incident" that I'm careful about that sort of thing. I try to not get to worked up about particular ladies or couples. I try to be a little emotionally distant. Try not to be too clingy.

Then I met Jessica at MFA. It's hard for me to think about how long we've known each other now. 3 or 4 years? I've written a number of posts about her. But it recently hit me that I think she may pretty much be my "record" for the person who I've had sex with the longest in my life other than Maria.

As I said I think I learned from the Christie incident. Jessica and I text each other. But it's once every few days. Sometimes it's not for weeks at a time. I also know that she has other lovers and other things that she does. Good for her! We text once in a while and set up dates to meet. About once every month or so. Maybe 4 or 5 times a year? So it's not like it's every week or even every month. But it's been steady. She's a good friend at this point. I really think I've done a good job of not catching "the feelings" for her. Yes. She is a good friend at this point but I really don't think she threatens Maria in any way. Maria knows that I'm not going to run off into the night with her.

So Jessica and I met at the hotel we like to meet at on Saturday night. It seems like usual we were both naked and fucking each other in about ten minutes. It seemed like something was going on. It seemed more "intense" than normal. When she kissed me it just seemed like "wow, damn, wtf?!" It was hot. When we play there is lots of oral and teasing and foreplay. We get really worked up. When I finally put on a condom and started to fuck her it seemed like she came REALLY hard.

We have a thing about the tables in the hotel rooms. She likes to go and lean over the tables and have me fuck her from behind. She'll cum so hard that her knees will wobble and she can barely stand up. I hold her by her hips and help keep her from collapsing while my cock is deep inside of her. I fucked her this way for a while until I felt like I was about to cum. I pulled out, pulled off the condom, and came all over her back. Jessica has a tattoo of a lady on her back. When I came my first spirt went so far that it hit the lady tattoo right in the face! I joked with her that I gave her tattoo a facial!

We took a short break and I must admit I was super horny and wanted to start playing again. We played with some toys and I made her cum really hard. Then I got on top of her and started to fuck her really hard. She came REALLY hard. Like harder than I had ever seen her cum before. It was sort of amazing but also sort of scary. I was a little worried about her. She told me that I needed to get out of her and not even touch her. She needed a break. I did my best.

We talked and decided that maybe we should take a break and have dinner together. See how she felt after we took a break? We went to a fave pizza place that we've been to together a couple of times already. We munched on pizza and talked about stuff and had a great time. We talked about growing up and high school and stuff. We showed each other pix of each other back in the day. It was really fun!

But when we were done with dinner she told me she just wasn't up for any more sex. I told her that I had to admit that I was still a little worked up but she said she was sorry but she just wasn't up for more. That last orgasm had totally wrecked her! We drove back to the hotel so she could drop me off. I was a little disappointed but I wasn't going to push it hard. I did make an attempt once we parked and asked her if she was sure she didn't want to go upstairs again but she said no.

I ended up going back up to the room and looking at porn for a bit and jerking off because I was still horny. Then I drove home. Maria didn't mind at all that I got home a little early.

I woke up the next morning and any grumpy feelings I had were gone. The point is that I had another amazing fun time with Jessica. Maria was cool with it all. In fact I talked to Maria about it all when I got home. I mentioned that my birthday was coming up next month. I asked her if she would be OK with me asking Jessica if she would like to join Maria and myself for a 3sum for my birthday? Maria said, "sure!". I texted Jessica and we have a date. So another amazing fun thing to look forward to! It seems like I've been having some good swinger karma recently. :-)